History repeats

What a strange year we are having. It has distracted me from myself. There are many changes to face now. I cannot ignore that I am changed forever. I will not be giving my opinion on medicine or science, only how I haven’t had to dig too deep for strength and guidance.

Sitting at home isolated, trying to educate my children, trying to be part of something huge... but it never sat well with me. My mind and heart started to move and shift as doubt naturally entered my mind.

As the months went on, I took back some freedoms, the ones that as humans we need for our individual well being, and therefore the well being of all of us.

I realised something, we cannot be held down by invisible ropes created by a system, designed to break our spirit. But why do I reject it so naturally? I know, it’s because I have had to save myself from this place of fear before.

Close friends of mine, non Mormon. They have adapted to this new way, lockdowns, isolation, so easily. They have lived a free life maybe? They don’t carry the scars that some of us have after breaking loose from mental chains.

So perhaps I have a deeper appreciation for freedom, and I’m not only talking about roaming, I mean study and question the narrative. We owe it to ourselves to fight a little and choose our own path.

I’ve been here before, lots of things to realise but all in our own time. I have mentally prepared for this day. It’s easy for me, but they don’t understand it. They fear for me. Which makes me sad for them, is this just a matter of opinion? Will we ever be the same again?